the hissing of what's missing

Not happy anymore

2010-01-26T21:31:39Z

Dear Life or whatever,

Lost. Help.

Luck, maybe? Just a little. A smidge, even.

Yeah.

Haven't had one of THESE in a while! ^_^

2010-01-24T19:18:31Z

Had a dream about Bono last night!

It was a weird dream, though. Not the Bono part. Just everything else.

I lived in this little village that was kinda like a college campus. Everybody knew everybody. I worked in a little retail clothing shop that was roughly the size of my apartment bedroom right now. ^_^ The store had a cool front part though, because instead of walking through a doorway to get in, there was just this mass of stairs that led up from the street into the store. Kinda like the Metropolitan Museum of Art. ^_^;

Anyway, work was slow that day, and Bono ended up coming into my store, and it was just him and me. I remember feeling like even though I was so excited that Bono was hanging out with me (seriously, he told me he had nothing else to do, and since it was quiet in my store, he wanted to just stay and hang), I was also very comforted by his presence, as though he had brought a calm with him that helped steel my nerves and just let me hang out with him like it was no big deal. Haha!

Then the dream got shitty. People started coming into the store and realizing that Bono was there, and he had to book it before the mass amounts of people starting showing up. Then B and Luna showed up, already pissed at me, and I found out that we'd made plans for dinner and a movie after I got off work, which I'd either totally forgotten about or couldn't remember (felt the same, either way), and B was pissed because she had to drive me. So we finally make it to the restaurant and Jeepers is there waiting for us, and they all got a glass of wine. I passed on the wine and got a water. Then later I changed my mind, and I went in my wallet to find my ID (because no waitress will ever serve me without seeing my ID because of how young I look), and I couldn't find the damn ID through all the crap I had stuffed in my wallet. I finally find it, show it to her, order a glass of Pino Grigio, and it takes her FOREVER to bring me the wine. And when she does, it's not in a nice wine glass like my friends got, it's just in a regular soda glass.

HAHA.

One good thing, the wine tasted yummy. I haven't had Pino Grigio in a long time, so I don't remember what it really tastes like, but this stuff was delicious. Very sweet. ^_^

Then I woke up. HAHA!

Stupid dream. But at least I got to spend some time with Bono! ♥

God, I just love the crap out of him. I really do. I know he's been criticized for his ego and all that political crapola, but really...the man's been nominated for the Nobel Peace Prize. Come on. ^_^ And, the people who criticize him for his ego clearly do not know him, because he only has an ego when he's in concert. Outside of performing, he's just a regular cool guy who stops on the streets to hang with his fans. (Or comes into retail shops to hang with one of his fans. :-P)

♥ ♥

I've often wondered, with the sheer amount of dreams I've had about Bono, that if Bono's daughters dream about my dad. Hehe.

Will you stop destroying the things I love?!

2010-01-21T05:02:41Z

Okay, so...ATWT is being cancelled after this season, meaning that the last show will air in September this year, and I just found out recently that Orbit is being dissolved. As in, the company will not exist anymore.

Thanks, PostWorks. You suck my ass.

Officially, Travis, Reali, Grace, and Kaitlyn have all said no to PW, who offered them jobs at their company downtown. Hoff peaced out a long time ago; I knew there was no way he would go downtown to work for PW. He'd sooner shoot himself in the head.

Then Grace tells me that Brooks, Patty, Brandon, and Boyd have all been "laid off" by PW. Why they laid Brandon off - besides the fact that he wouldn't go to work for them, either - is beyond me. Brandon was Orbit's cash cow. Seriously, a ton of high-profile clients came to Orbit for color-correction with Brandon. Not to mention how many times he picked up PW's shit when they couldn't get the job done.

PW is a plague. They were a sinking ship from the get-go and have finally managed to take Orbit under with them.

But on the bright side, now Grace and I can go job-hunting together! And with Alice, too, since she's back from the Philippines and looking as well. :-)

The three of us went out tonight and shabu-shabu together. I love that this is our little thing together. I can't remember the last time we had it, so tonight was good. We went to a new place in Chinatown, though. It was good, but I think I liked the spices from the place in Koreatown better. It took me a long while to find the right mix to flavor my soup tonight. :-/ Oh, well.

And, for the life of me, I cannot get used to the overwhelmingly FISHY smell of Chinatown. God. There's no mistaking where you are in NYC when you're in Chinatown. You can smell the fish down in the subways. Blech. I wish I liked fish. Maybe in another couple of years, my taste buds will change. Though I highly doubt it, since I've hated fish all my life. It's pretty much been a constant. :-)

It's not denial, but it's definitely a sign of the heebie-jeebies...

2009-12-17T15:54:48Z

Okay, so, sometimes when I'm too hungry, I can't sleep.

This morning, I was too hungry. So I got up at about 9:30 (I know, I can't believe it, either!) and I got myself ready for the day. I even braved the treacherous weather outside (and by treacherous I mean FREAKING FREEZING!) so I could drop some letters into the mail.

Get back to my apartment and decide I should eat a packet of oatmeal that's in my pantry. No big. So I put the water on to boil, get a bowl, open the packet and dump the oatmeal into my bowl. Go back into my room to check email and such while the water boils, and when I get back to the kitchen, MY ENTIRE BOWL IS CRAWLING WITH BUGS.

Ohhhh God. I don't know what they are. They're not ants, but they're tiny like ants, and they move pretty quickly. They were in the oatmeal, on the bowl, on the countertop, on my spoon. Ohhhhh God. I'm so glad I noticed it before I touched it. UGH.

So naturally, I freak out, but it's hard to have a full-on freak-out while your roommate is still sleeping, so I grab the bowl (OH GOD I TOUCHED THE BOWL FULL OF CREEPY CRAWLIES) and dump it into the trash, then put the bowl in the sink and dump the boiling water in it to kill the bugs. Then I grab a wad of paper towels and start smashing the little buggies on the countertop. Then I threw everything out and took the trash bag out PRONTO.

And now I feel all itchy. OH GOD. I'm completely grossed out. I may never eat oatmeal again as long as I live. UGH. UGH. I swear that oatmeal was NOT in my cabinet that long. So, yeah...definitely getting my dad to look at my cabinet, to see if I can get rid of the buggies. OH GOD. OH GOD. I HATE BUGS. I FEEL ALL CREEPY CRAWLY NOW.

*SHUDDER* OF EPIC PROPORTIONS!!!!!!!

As you may have guessed, I do not handle bugs well. At all. Now I'm gonna have the heebie-jeebies for the rest of the day.

UGH!!!

That's right, I have mad powers of persuasion

2009-12-04T18:18:53Z

Had a funny dream this morning in which I talked David Wright out of taking steroids.

I was on a roadtrip to somewhere (no idea where), and after I got forced into the EZ-Pass lane with no EZ-Pass to speak of, I stopped at a hotel to spend the night. It was a BIG hotel, and somehow, the manager (who was a woman) came to know me by name.

She gave me a room on the ninth floor and I was trying to lug all my crap with me (Dear dream-self: Learn how to pack better) and get to an elevator when I ran into David. He was talking to one of the manager's sons (how I know this is a mystery, but I knew it) and he was not a good seed. So he and David are discussing what drugs he has and what David's thinking on buying from him. I wait until the manager's son leaves to get the stuff and then I run up to David and tell him not to do that.

He says to me, "Because of all the ladies, right?"

And I said, "No...more because of the kids. It's kinda like A-Rod, y'know?"

And he smiled and nodded in a "you've got a point" kind of way, then says something about he's not so sure, though, because his averages haven't been great.

At this point, we're being approached by a crowd of people who have recognized him and want autographs, so with one last-ditch effort, I say to him, "You don't need it! Think about your averages for the last three years," and he smiles and we go our separate ways.

PS - David Wright has had an average over .300 for at LEAST the last three years, if not longer. (I don't know his specs right off the top of my head, but they're pretty damn good! ^_^)

And I never did find my room. At least, not before I woke up, anyway. I found the elevator, just never got on it. *sheepish* Guess David really distracted me! LOL. What was I doing staying in a hotel like that without money, anyway? I couldn't even afford the tolls on the Parkway!

HAHA.

Topsy-turvy

2009-12-03T03:00:49Z

So, I continue to have no idea what to do with my life. I'm really, completely, honestly at a loss. I wish I had a sign or something to help point me in the direction of whatever's supposed to come next.

On the upside, Caitie and I saw Van Hansis in person, at the True Colors Cabaret show this past Sunday. He hosted. The show was great. All the performers were adorable. Loved it. Didn't end till 1.30 in the morning and it was fantastic! (But the price?! Oh hells no, you didn't just charge me $21 for a cocktail. >_<)

Anyway. I don't have much to put in here lately because I don't have a lot going on, and a ton of my energy is put into my ATWT journal. It takes a lot outta ya, but definitely gives more back! :-) Wouldn't trade that fandom for anything in the world. It's amazing how quickly people can bond and become friends over the internet. ♥!

Chris, coworker from Orbit, said something weird to me tonight, and I didn't want to harp on it, for fear that he would get the wrong idea. But he messages me on facebook and says, "Morgan keeps talking about you". So I wrote back, jokingly, "Putting me down, as usual, right?" and he writes back, "No, it's been good things. Reaaaally good things." So of course, I was like EH? but I didn't want to push it, because I didn't want it to sound like I was completely interested in what he meant. BUT I AM. I'M TOTALLY INTERESTED IN WHAT HE WAS TRYING TO IMPLY. Also, Chris has been known to randomly fuck with me, just to fuck with me and for no other reason. He was the one who always prank-called the front desk and made me put up with his ridiculous shit. So...I don't know what to think now, if he was serious or if he was messing with me. Although, I warned Morgan that he would be bored without me! It's not so much a surprise that he is.

Anyway. I don't want to talk about Orbit anymore. But I'm probably going to end up going to visit some time before the holidays. How messed up my life is.

One of the reasons why everyone thinks New Yorkers are assholes...

2009-11-09T21:41:28Z

And in this case, they'd be right!

I told myself that I wasn't going to get angry over this, but it's too late. I wish I had said something back, but my first instinct is not to snap back at people. Especially since I was taken off-guard.

So I get off the subway today. I'm going with the flow of the crowd down the stairs, and I pull out my iPod to switch to a different song. I'm minding my own business when this dumb bitch of a woman slaps at my shoulder and says, "Don't do that." As in like, I'm your mother and I say don't do that. I look over at her just in time to see her practically bowling down the poor old man in front of her. I didn't say anything back, just watched as she pushed her way through the turnstiles and ran for the set of stairs leading down to the street.

Okay, FIRST OF ALL...HOW ABOUT YOU KEEP YOUR GODDAMN HANDS OFF ME?! Did I say you could touch me? Why, no, I didn't. So, DON'T.

Second of all, WHY ARE YOU AN ASSHOLE?! Did snapping at me really get you anywhere faster? No, it didn't. LAY OFF, BITCH.

I HATE HATE HATE HATE IT when people are unnecessarily rude. Her saying something to me did not improve her situation. And I WASN'T holding up traffic. I may not have been speeding down the stairs like she was, but I certainly wasn't presenting myself as a roadblock, either.

I also HATE HATE HATE IT when people treat me like a little kid. I KNOW I LOOK FIFTEEN. I DO NOT ACT LIKE I'M FIFTEEN - DON'T TREAT ME LIKE I DO. Just because I wear a backpack and look young doesn't mean you get to disrespect me.

God damn it. I hate people like that. Completely unneccesary. Grow up!

I should have said something back. Damn it. Dumb bitch!

The Trouble with Trains

2009-11-06T21:34:46Z

Oh, boy!

So, Pace and I made plans for dinner at O'Lunney's last night, and it turned into a complete and utter adventure!

She ended up having to stay at her office till about six or so, so I told her not to rush and just tell me when she was getting on the train into Manhattan. So, she texts me around 7:15 saying she got on the train...and she didn't end up getting into Manhattan till like 9:30!!! She lives a half hour away from the city. OY!

Something happened where one of the main tracks on her line lost power, and she ended up sitting on the train for almost two hours. They were going to do all this crazy stuff like back the train up and drop everybody off in Hoboken and all this crap until they finally were just able to go to Penn! Sheesh.

But, we managed to get dinner at O'Lunneys ^_^, and I had this cream of broccoli and cauliflower soup with chicken and IT WAS AMAZING. Oh my God. I wanted to crawl into the bowl and bathe in it, it was so delicious!! YUMMMMMMM.

And we had our famous Magners, which was totally needed, as we both were pretty stressed out by the time we got there! LOL. And I totally got us carded. I'm so used to just immediately apologizing whenever that happens now, because I know it's my fault. In fact, one of the waitresses we talked to last night told me I looked fifteen. FIFTEEN!!! What the fricking frick! I'm almost more than DOUBLE that!

Geez. I guess I'm the constant non-conformist. I can't even look my own age!

Then last night, or I should say, this morning (seriously, it was like 5:45am) my FIRE ALARM decided it was going to go off. Jesus Lord, I thought my damn kitchen was on fire. But it would only beep once and then stop, then a few minutes later it would beep again. So finally Emma, Pace, and I got up to fix it. The battery was dying, hence the reason why it was only beeping intermittently (and thankfully, my kitchen was not on fire), so we have to get it a new battery. But whew! No fires. No emergencies. Thank God!

The thing is pretty spazzy anyway. When Emma bakes cookies, no problem, but when I make tater tots, it goes off. When Emma heats up her pies, it goes off, but when I bake pizza, nothing. Argh! Crazy fire alarm. Glad we have it, though. God forbid anything actually happened!

Anyway, I have been severely neglecting this journal for two reasons: 1) my ATWT journal that Caitie and I share has taken over my life, and 2) I haven't had a life for like, seven months now! HAHA. So I'm trying to keep up on it more, 'cause I know there'll be a day when I want to look back and will be pissed that I have no written account of my time this past summer. Anyway.

I'm sleepy. Did not get a lot of rest last night. :-( Oh, well.

I got ripped off and shot up, all in one day

2009-10-21T23:21:12Z

So, I did it. And I did it all by MYSELF, too!

The CVS around the corner from my apartment had flu shots from 3-7pm, and I actually went all by myself and got one! No, REALLY!

I just wanna say ACK! GAHHHHH! HURL! UGGGHHH! NGGGGHHHHH! GROSS! IHATEYOU! DIENEEDLESDIE! But I did it! ^_^

The nurse who gave me my shot was very cute and very nice. She asked me if there was any possibility I could be pregnant. I was like, "HELL NO!" HAHAHAHA. Then I explained to her that I LOATHE needles and she said, "I totally understand!" Hehe. She was nice. She also asked me to come back and check with her in fifteen minutes since I'd never had a flu shot before. She wanted to make sure that I didn't have a bad reaction to it. Hee.

But I feel fine. My arm's a little sore at the injection site, but I've always been this way with vaccinations. I can't believe I did it! And without anyone having to drive me there and hold me in the seat, either! Whew!

Big girl Ice is a big girl. ^_^

Go me! Whee!

Best QAF Quote Ever

2009-10-18T19:08:38Z

"Aren't you supposed to be off somewhere, stickin' your Pina in some Colada?" - Debbie to Brian, who was supposed to be leaving for Miami for the White Party but instead was helping Lindsey and Melanie get married.

AHAHAHAHAHAHA! Love it. Sometimes I wish I had a mother like Debbie, just because she's always so frank and everything's always out in the open.

Life, as it is

2009-10-16T19:26:27Z

So, I went in for an interview at Sound One this morning, and ended up spending three hours hanging at Orbit afterwards. ^_^ Orbit really is like my version of Cheers. Really. Sing the theme song. It fits me and Orbit. ^_^

And there was already a bit of reunion going on because Steve was in town from L.A., and he and Carlos are friends, so the three of us all ended up at Orbit together for a while! It was great. I got to have pizza with everyone, too! Like, actually able to eat and watch TV in the living room with the staff, instead of being stuck behind the desk. That was fun. And I met two of their new interns. Both very sweet girls. ^_^ I went beer shopping with Grace. ^_^ And Patty regaled me with tales of his bowling league. ^_^ Damn. I miss Orbit. I miss the flexibility and the good laughs.

Anyway, life has been nutso, so let's recap it at superspeed, shall we? Yes.

This last Wednesday night we had a surprise party for Dad's 50th birthday. Mom almost blew the secret when she suggested he take her car to go visit Caitie at school, while all the decorations and food for his party were stashed in her trunk. Luckily, Dad didn't take it too hard when Mom changed her mind about lending out her car.

Kayleigh's baptism was fun, although she was not in a good mood that day. It was a bit rainy and dreary, but the church was beautiful and we had good food at the reception and it was fun.

I didn't really enjoy the New York Anime Festival Caitie and I went to. It was way too crowded, and not anime-specific enough. There was too much other sci-fi stuff (and cosplayers) floating around. I hope Caitie enjoyed herself, though. I was done with it after the five hours we spent there. But I'm glad we got to spend it together!

We took Mom out to Carrabba's for her birthday and they gave her free dessert. That night was fun. We did nothing but laugh and eat. I had the Mezzaluna ravioli, which doesn't sound like a big deal, but it's so damn delicious I could die. I fricken love that ravioli. So Mom had a good birthday.

And Caitie and I FINALLY SAW U2 IN CONCERT!!!! Hells yes. Concert was amazing (too short), but I coulda kicked the people in our section. NOBODY wanted to stand up till the end of the concert! Are you frikking kidding me with this?! Then the guy behind us wanted us to sit down. Um, excuse me? I waited six effing months to see my favourite band in the whole world and you want me to sit down?!. Kill yourself. Luckily, he did not make a fuss about it, and Caitie and I did not sit down for one song. We danced and sung and just went crazy and it was completely awesome and one of the best nights of my life.

Caitie-kins had a good birthday, too, despite it being on a Monday this year. She had her peeps over and Dad made some really good food and it was a grand time had by all. ^_^ LOL.

Ok. So speed recap over. I don't know why it was easier for me to recap all of that in backwards order, but it was.

Now we're back to today. Caitie and I have tickets (which came in the mail yesterday, btw) for the True Colors Cabaret, which is being hosted by VAN this year! Hellz yeah! It is a Cabaret show supporting the LGBT cause. Since two-thirds of the kids in my family are either lesbian or bi, I feel it is my civic duty to pay my respects and support the LGBT community. Oh, yeah...and I also want to gaze at Teh Prettiness that is Mr. Van Hansis IN PERSON! Whoo! Oh, Van. Love.

All right, gonna run now. It's Bethany's birthday, but I have no effing clue what she's doing for it because she didn't make any definite plans. Argh.

Sometimes, you wanna go...

2009-09-18T03:30:15Z

Sing it with me...

Where everybody knows your name....and they're always glad you came...

Orrrrrrbiiiiiiiittt...I miss you like a limb. A LIMB!

Went out tonight for Grace's birthday. She is finally an old-fart like me. We were discussing whether we're in our mid-twenties still or now in our later-twenties. Initially we said later-twenties, but since our age is still closer to 25, we're deluding ourselves and saying that we're more in our mid-twenties still. ^_^

I crashed the birthday party in Orbit's living room and snagged myself the last piece of key lime pie! Shveet. It was very tasty and I got hugs from Claire and a lot of surprised welcomes from everyone else. Reali's baby is ALREADY a MONTH OLD! A MONTH! Sheesh. Time sure flies.

We went to this place on 48th and 8th called Sombrero and had margaritas and chips with guac. Very tasty. I got to see Carlos, too. I love the shit out of that guy, not gonna lie.

And Chris has Lyme's disease! Honest to goodness! I saw the bite. Poor guy. He's on antibiotics. And when the hell did he get an earring?! I forgot to ask Grace about it.

After Sombrero, we went to the Gaf. I feel like the Gaf has become the "Orbit" place to hang out. We've had at least three different separate occasions where we've hung out there. And they've all been great times.

Damn you, Orbit. Hanging out with you hurts so good.

Anyway, I should go now. We did tequila shots and I'm still feeling mine. Sorry this post might be choppy. This is totally stream of consciousness here. ^_^

I wanna turn it around...

2009-09-14T16:09:47Z

Okay. Seriously, self, what's up?

I went out with Grace and Morgan Saturday night for some Cheeburger Cheeburger, which was fantastic! Morgan actually drove us there (and consequently, drove me home) and we just laughed and talked and joked all night. It was great. I need to go to Forest Hills more often. It always seems so much busier than Sunnyside.

However, now I have Orbit on the brain. They are still doing this funky rotating, half-receptionist thing there, which I am totally not understanding. This is a silly arrangement, yes? Brooks covers for a couple hours, then Grace covers for a couple hours, then Morgan steps in. Why?

Grace and I were talking about it, and even she thinks it's a bit silly. They need someone steady to run the front desk, yes? Okay, I admit, there were days where I was so bored I wanted to tear my hair out, but then there were other days where I couldn't turn around without something new smacking me in the face. They really do need someone steady.

Argh. I guess I am still not over this. I feel I was unjustly robbed. And PostWorks continues to function with people who were not as strong in their work ethic as me.

On top of that, I read this Nuke fic yesterday that has seriously messed with my emotions. I don't know why. I've been trying and trying to figure out why it makes me feel so weird, and the only thing I can come up with is that it's a combination of aspects presented in the story.

Okay. From the beginning. It's set in the future. Noah and Luke live in NYC and have come home to the farm for Christmas with the Snyders. Noah gets into a car accident and loses his memory. Yeah, it sounds cliche, but it really wasn't presented that way. Then the entirety of the story is how Luke feels about this strange, fifteen-year-old Noah who develops a crush on Faith (gross gross ew ew) and basically ignores the crap out of him. But in between all of this, Luke's pain is painted so perfectly (seriously, I would have flipped my shit if I were him, but he remained cool-headed throughout the ENTIRE ordeal) and then bits of their life from New York, including fun times with friends (and Noah's business partner) are described. I don't know, I can't explain it, but it's STILL effing with me!

And it's not even like it was perfectly written. It wasn't. I mean, the grammar (save a for a few tiny things ^_^) was beautiful, and it flowed wonderfully. It's a great read. But I felt as though Noah was a little OOC towards the end, which I can deal with, given the extenuating circumstances of the story. And the author probably could have cut out a lot of dialogue with the doctor, since the fic could have been understood without it, but really, that's it. Everything else was right up my alley.

I would have changed one thing, though. I definitely would have had Luke leave Noah at the farm and return to New York at some point. I don't know what I would have done to make him go back to Oakdale (obviously something significant would have to happen with Noah), but I would have had him leave, since he thought he was causing Noah more pain than helping him. I would have LOVED to have seen that.

And I probably would have tried to make Noah seem a little more consistent in his actions (although, since he was operating with his fifteen-year-old brain, I can understand the inconsistency). It just felt like he bounced ALL over the place a little too much. One second he's following Faith around, then he's having a special moment with Luke on the couch, then he's upstairs kissing Luke and passing out. Don't get me wrong, it still worked, but I felt a little tossed around with it.

But the "remembering" scene was fantastically done. I literally had to stop eating my lunch when I realized that Noah was actually remembering and not just agreeing with Luke. Oh, boy. And the dialogue during their love scene, and the descriptions of their actions while speaking, was just incredibly emotionally satisfying.

Bah. Anyway. This is just a damn fanfiction! Argh. Seriously, I started reading it Saturday night and I finished it yesterday, and it STILL has not left me. I don't know why! Gah. What the hell, self. Let it go.

Anyway. Think I've blathered on enough.

Thank God For Knock-Off Rufies: Funny conversation with Morgan

2009-09-09T20:06:48Z

Had to catalogue this, because these are the typical conversations that Morgan and I have over IM every day:

Me: I just thought a bunch of us could go out and do something.
Him (3:41:37 PM): titty bar?
Him (3:41:53 PM): how about armed robbery?
Me (3:43:55 PM): whatever. Maybe we could get shitfaced and naked, and run around on the street in orange cones.
(Sidenote: I'm making fun of his friends, who actually did that. And Morgan took pictures.)
Me (3:44:12 PM): y'know, as per usual
Him (3:44:23 PM): I'm game
Him (3:44:46 PM): now that's what you call a good time
Him (3:45:40 PM): not that one beer and go home type of night
Me (3:46:24 PM): we could always do Cheeburger, too. But that's pretty clean fun right there.
Him (3:46:36 PM): oh you sinner!
Me (3:47:02 PM): right?! Don't tell my Mom!
Him (3:47:19 PM): shhhhhhh
Him (3:47:28 PM): i'll have to sneak out too
Me (3:48:05 PM): yeah, man! You'll have to lie for me when my parents ask what I'm doing
Me (3:50:00 PM): we could do that thing where you tell your parents you're studying at my house, and I tell my parents I'm studying at yours
Him (3:50:41 PM): but in all reality we are doing heroin and passing std's
Him (3:50:52 PM): you know, typical teen shit
Me (3:51:07 PM): exactly. Glad we're on the same page here
Him (3:51:12 PM): oh and don't forget the roofies
(Sidenote: Rufies are a long-term running gag/joke between the two of us. Morgan was actually rufied in a bar once...by a guy!)
Me(3:51:23 PM): Oh yeah! Rufies make it a good time!
Him (3:52:05 PM): fuck yea they do
Him (3:52:22 PM): gets you all warm and fuzzy
Me (3:52:42 PM): except when you wake up in the middle of being f*cked in the arse by a guy
Him (3:52:54 PM): speak for yourself
Me (3:53:11 PM): oh, I forgot. you're a manwhore
Him (3:53:15 PM): lol
Him (3:53:19 PM): god you're fucked up
Him (3:53:25 PM): cuz you don't wake up
Him (3:53:39 PM): you find out hours later
Him (3:53:48 PM): when you cant sit
Me (3:53:50 PM): what if they were knock-off, cheapie rufies? Then you might wake up
Him (3:53:57 PM): hahahahahhaha
Him (3:54:02 PM): prob the ones i had
Him (3:54:10 PM): cuz i was able to keep going
Me (3:54:25 PM): yeah, see? Thank god for knock-off rufies.
Him (3:54:47 PM): hahahahaha
Him(3:54:51 PM): god bless 'em

So now you have an idea of what my workday was like after 3pm when Morgan came in. To say that I had a good time at work is only barely scratching the surface! ^_^

Home is where the heart is

2009-09-09T16:11:15Z

The best thing about not having a job currently is the flexibility in my weekly schedule (AKA I have no life so things are easy to go with). Take for example, this past weekend.

Went to NJ Thursday night. Had a dentist appointment set for Friday morning. Well, through a combination of Caitie's car not working, and Mom worrying over me taking too much preventative medicine for my heart, I ended up not making the appointment and rescheduling it for Tuesday morning. Then I was supposed to go home Tuesday night, but what the hey, I decided to shake things up and come back this morning instead. Oooh. Daredevil, I am.

Anyway, I had a great weekend. Spent Saturday and Sunday with Caitie, got to peruse through her Japanese book, which was mucho fun and exciting, and then Monday we both went to Laura and Bel's and had a cookout and played Rock Band and entertained Kayleigh! Yeah! Good times. Kayleigh is so effing adorable I wanna puke. I love my niece! So frigging cute.

So, I went to my dentist appointment yesterday morning, to get a cavity filled. Ok, so I HATE NEEDLES WITH A PASSION. Everyone who knows me knows this. So I was, of course, dreading the shit out of this appointment. Cavities = novacaine = needles in the face. ARGH!

So I'm sitting in the chair, absolutely shaking out of my mind, and then doctor comes in and says, "Let's take a look to see if you even need to be numbed." So she gets a gander of the situation in my mouth, and then says, "Yeah, I don't think you need anything. You shouldn't feel anything more than cold water and a little vibration." I smiled at her and told her how thankful I was since I hate needles, but inside I was screaming OH HELLS TO THE YES! PRAISE THE LORD! Oh my God, I can't tell you how happy I was. So, I got my cavity filled with absolutely NO PAIN WHATSOEVER! No needles, no novacaine, NOTHING! It was awesome! (I never thought I'd say that about the dentist! I abhor the dentist's office!) Best dentist visit I've ever had, no joke. It hurt more to get my teeth cleaned! Plus, I was literally in and out of there 20 minutes. Who'd'a thunk?

So now I'm back home in Queens. I missed my computer! *clutches it protectively* My parents' computer makes me want to kill myself. It really does. I have learned that one of my biggest pet peeves is slow computers. They make me nuts! I want it as fast and effective as possible (AHAHAHA that's what she said). ^_^

Last Thursday I had me a Skanky Delta Xi Day Out! The four of us met up at Hofstra (Dear Hofstra, I miss the shit out of you. Love, Me) and then went to CPK for lunch (I can't remember the last time I had CPK before this, really) and then we went bowling! AHAHAHA. Luna and her granny-bowl style was awesome! We spent the entire day talking about boys (stupid boys), dating, and laughing our asses off during the game. It was totally fricken great. Just the four of us Delta Xi's. I needed that. AND I got three strikes! THREE! How does the lefty (read: automatic handicap) get THREE DAMN STRIKES?! I cannot understand it. ^_^

Wanted to do Witches Brew this week, but B's work schedule got messed up and now we have to put it on hold. Oh, well. That's okay with me - we'll get to do it soon.

It's so weird how you go through that age where you want nothing to do with your parents, and you never want to be home, and all that, and then suddenly, you hit an age where hanging out with your parents is the coolest thing, and going back home is like a mini-vacation that you sorely need. So funny how that works. I never missed NJ before I moved to NY (which makes sense), but I love both places for different reasons. I'm pretty sure my heart will always stay in NJ, but NY has a big chunk of me. ^_^ Partly because of Hofstra, and partly because of Orbit. Really weird how life is - it changes in the blink of an eye and you have to adapt. Hmm.

Anyway. Should go clear out my DVR now. Who knows how many eps of QAF have piled up in there! PS - Today's ATWT episode is the one with Mason crashing his bike into the fence in the park. AHAHAHAHAHA. Poor Mason.

AHAHA. Geek, anyone?

2009-09-02T02:28:42Z

Why, yes, that would be me!

Which Kyle XY Character Are You?

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Couldn't help myself. Saw it and had to take it. Though I can't say I really agree with my assessment. Pretty much the only thing I have in common with Kyle is that he's adaptable, and I am too. Oh, yeah, and he's hott as shit ~~and I am too~~. AHAHA. Totally kidding. He is hott as shit, though.

^_^

Late bloomer

2009-09-01T23:55:59Z

Okay...so why didn't anybody tell me that Zac Efron is actually a really good actor?!

I just watched 17 Again (God, I live Netflix), and man alive, I can't believe how much I loved it! I actually didn't want it to end. And it would make such a good TV series! No joke. The whole storyline could have been drawn out much longer, with much more flashbacks between Mike and Scar, and all the school stuff in between could have been fleshed out, too. I'm actually disappointed that the movie wasn't longer! What the hell, self?!

I watched Confessions of a Shopaholic, too, which I thought I would like more, but I definitely do not. I might actually watch 17 Again again! Hahaha. What the hell is up with me? I did not expect to like this movie so much! I'm kinda starting to understand why everyone was so gaga over Zac Efron when he first burst onto the scene.

Oy. Don't tell me I have to become a Zac fangirl now. Gee. I think I have enough on my fangirl plate as it is!

PS - I bought SafetySuit's album "Life Left to Go" on a whim last week, and I am LOVING IT! It's really awesome. Every song is catchy in its own way! Whoo!

What the hell, self...what the hell.

Uhm...?

2009-08-29T04:29:07Z

Just hit a new low in life...

Mom told me tonight over dinner that I have unresolved sexual tension in my life that needs to be addressed.

*facepalm*

I feel like this should be an entry on the Texts from Last Night website. If only Mom knew....

NNNNGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!

2009-08-28T01:26:58Z

I HATE TV! NEVER WATCHING IT AGAIN!

okay, that's a lie. But I am SUPER PISSED at how Kyle XY ended!!! WTH ABC FAMILY? YOU SUCK MOOSE EGGS!!!

Seriously. Seriously?! The show gets cancelled in its third season, and they end the show WITH NO ENDING. The last episode literally ended with Kyle about to go balistic on Cassidy right before Cassidy tells him they're brothers. WHISKEY TANGO FOXTROT???!!!!

God damn it! The show had just started to get REALLY REALLY good. Seriously! The episode "Tell-Tale Heart" was freaking amazing, and now that Kyle's caught in a love triangle between Amanda and Jessi, it had just gotten even MORE interesting! Not to mention hotter *coughMattDallaswithoutashirtcough*. God damn it! I'm PISSED. Can you tell? Haha.

Seriously, though, I knew ABC Family sucked ass for a reason. They cancelled Kyle so they could promote The Extremely Boring and Fucking Retarded Life of a Dumbass Teenager...come on, REALLY?! Why do we need more shows about dumbshit girls who get pregnant at 16 and cry for an entire season about it? Or, lest we forget this gem, that fricken show "Greek"...two words ABC Family: KILL YOURSELF!

So, now the loyal fans of Kyle are campaigning to get Syfy (PS why did you change your logo from Sci-Fi to Syfy? Assholes) to pick the show up. I do agree that it would fit with their programming, and now that Kyle's getting all grown-up and hot and bothered with Teh Ladyfriends, maybe they could mature the show a bit. If they didn't, that would work, too, but I'd like to see more Matt Dallas without his shirt on! Yes I would.

Anyway, back to the campaign...yeah. People are writing letters. And I'm seriously considering writing one of my own. The letters are going to an address in Manhattan, so...to write or not to write?

It's really not that far-fetched of an idea...SyFy picked Stargate up after Showtime abandoned it and Stargate ran for TEN YEARS! I also believe it was the longest-running (and therefore most successful) Sci-Fi show on television.

Dammit, Janet! Why does stuff like this happen? We've got friggin shit-ass shows like The Kardashians and the like that rot our brains, but good (wholesome, even) entertaining, well-written, engaging, witty shows are taken off the air too soon. WTH American TV?

Anyway, that's my bitch-rant about TV. Or, more precisely, about Kyle XY. I will miss this show so much. It was totally my guilty pleasure from day one. I'm incredibly sad to see it go just when it had started hitting its peak. Bah.

Now I'm all sad-panda. Boo. ABC Family can take a long walk off a short pier.

Words of three

2009-08-18T02:47:17Z

Three names I go by (besides given name):
G, Dubs, Fooshie

Three Jobs I Have Had In My Life
Safari Hut hostess @ Six Flags, Sales Associate @ Aero, Front Desk Coordinator @ Orbit

Three Places I Have Lived
California, 26 Ellery Road, Toms River

Three Favorite Drinks
Apple juice, milk, VitaminWater

Three TV Shows That I watch
True Blood, Queer as Folk, As the World Turns

Three Places I Have Been
Tradition Field @ Port St. Lucie in Florida, Phildelphia, Coney Island

People Who Call Me Regularly
Mom, Pace, Laura

Three Of My Favorite Foods
Potatoes!, filet mignon, anything Italian

Three Friends I Think Will Respond
Um...whoev

Three Things I Am Looking Forward To
Getting married, finding a job, visiting my family

Three Things That Are Always By Your Side
Tori and Silky (they count as one thing!), cell phone, chapstick

Yanked from my sis. Thanks Sweat-o Honey!

Let's Go Cy-clones!

2009-08-16T19:18:19Z

I had me an awesome day yesterday.

Pacey and I decided to FINALLY make it down to Coney Island. The train ride was pretty long - about an hour and a half from my apartment - but we got to take the N, so it was all good. ^_^

Anyway, as soon as you come out of the subway station, the entirety of Coney Island is right in front of you. Pace and I grabbed hotdogs, fries, and lemonade from Nathan's, and then we went to the "Flea by the Sea". ^_^ Didn't have much there that your average person would want to buy, but it was fun nontheless. Then we hit the boardwalk and strolled for a while, taking in the sights. There was a band playing some beachy-bluesy hits, and there was a group of people dancing to some beachy-techno - including a guy on roller skates who was totally rockin' it out - and the beach itself was absolutely PACKED. There was a huge cruise ship sailing by on the horizon, and it was so hazy all the way out there, it looked like a ghost-ship. ^_^ Neat.

Then, of course, Pacey and I visited the Cyclone and got to see it run the track a couple times, and we touched the tracks. LOL. I've touched the Cyclone! Haha. It was $8 to ride, though, so we skipped it. For now. I want to ride the Cyclone before it gets closed down!

Then we met up with Ainsley and hit the KeySpan Park for the Cyclones game! The game was really fun. Since the Cyclones are owned by the Mets, there were a lot of Mets fans there, sporting all their Mets gear. Pace and I had our Santana drawstring bags with us! And - how funny is this - Margot, my coworker from Orbit, ended up sitting right in front of us! Haha. So we enjoyed the game and then enjoyed the fireworks after the game! They were awesome, although we had to change seats, in accordance with the Fire Marshall, so we wouldn't get blown up. LOL.

After the game we grabbed ice cream (and Ainsley got Nathan's for herself), and then we hopped back on the train to come home! AWESOME DAY. I'd forgotten how much the beach/boardwalk is engrained into my being...being there yesterday was like a little slice of home. T_T I heart the boardwalk muchly.

So, I had a great day yesterday, but guess who didn't? David Wright. He was up to bat in the fourth inning of yesterday's Mets vs. Giants game, and the pitcher (Somebody Cain, GRRRRR) throws him a fastball, and HITS HIM IN THE FRICKING HEAD!!!! Are you kidding me?!

He basically splayed David out by homeplate. My poor David. T_T Went to the hospital and stayed the night; was released this morning with a concussion and is now taking it easy. Man. David was our last hope for this season. Bah. DON'T HURT MY DAVID, YOU BASTARDS!

And then, if injury wasn't enough, Whoever-He-Is Cain (I don't remember his first name) decides he's going to add insult to the whole ordeal by TIPPING HIS CAP to the audience when he finally gets pulled from the game. He chalked it up to "re-adjusting my hat" but COME ON. That was totally in poor taste, especially since he seemed geniunely freaked out when David was being examined on the field. He just discredited himself. I can understand that maybe he wasn't used to being booed (seriously, no fans boo like New York fans boo), but if you hit a team's STAR PLAYER, you had better EXPECT to get booed!!! GRRRR. You better apologize and send flowers and feel horrible about yourself for a while!

And, hehe, in this same vein, I had this very strange dream this morning. I was dating a basketball player named Jake (AHAHAHA wonder where that name came from), and he decided that he was going to declare his love for me in front of our whole families (with a microphone, no less), but it was all very sweet. We ended up getting engaged and his mother was pestering me about grandchildren. Haha. Can you guess what's been on my mind lately? AHAHA. My life is sad.

I miss baseball! I went to one last month, but I feel like I haven't been to a Mets game in forever. I think it's because this season is just so crappy. I feel so disconnected because NONE of my boys are playing! Bah. Of course, the boys who are playing are wonderful, too. I love my Tatis and my Pagan and Daniel Murphy and Sheff's all good and Castillo's still rockin' it out and Francoeur (who's become BFFs with David, wahh so cute!) is growing on me....Sigh. Baseball is wonderful (except when you get clocked in the effing head by a 95 mile-an-hour fastball...).

Ugh.

2009-08-13T23:14:41Z

Rejection is like, the worst feeling ever. It makes you feel dumb and unwanted and totally embarrassed. Why do feelings like this even exist in the world? They don't make things easier.

I went out to dinner with Ginger last night, and it was a really good time. I really love Ginger. She and I are only two years apart, so our mentalities and maturity is right on the same level. Plus, she has a great sense of humor and a lot of boy troubles to talk about! Haha. I had a really good time listening to her and trying to help her out. I feel that she and I have grown closer since she left to work for Sound One, and I was laid off from Orbit. Good things do come out of bad situations! And we had yummy cosmos. It's a good thing they were tasty, 'cause the damn things were nine dollars a pop! Sheesh. Mid-town restaurant prices are like a dagger to my heart.

So, I'm just gonna say FML. But I say it with a smile. FML!!!! I can't tell my ass from a hole in the ground. Whee!

Anyway, I've totally been caught up in the current QAF storyline on Logo this past week or so. Brian, who I never thought I'd say this about, is quickly becoming my favourite on this show! I never really felt connected to him - I liked him, but was never really crazy about him, but these last few episodes...LORD! Wait, scratch that. It really started last season when Justin left Brian to be with the violinist (can't remember his name at the moment), and Brian was so OBVIOUSLY devastated over their breakup. Brian was SO SAD and it made me SO SAD for him! Waaaahhhh. T_T He was incredibly sweet to Justin too, and he punched Michael out for bad-mouthing Justin at the time....ohhh, Brian. And then, this season, when the bomb goes off at Babylon and he's tearing through the crowd, trying to find Justin...! GAH. Then he finds him and tells him that he loves him. And then next episode he asks Justin to marry him! GOD DAMMIT BRIAN, YOU'RE FRICKEN KILLING ME WITH THIS!!! I sat curled up on my couch whimpering at all his sweetness for the past two nights. BAHHH! Why is boy-love so damn amazing?! DAMN YOU ALL! ^_^

Not to mention Michael and Ben. Ohhhh, Ben. You are too awesome. Hellz to the yeah, punching that bigoted bastard out when he said Michael deserved to get blown up in the explosion! HELLZ TO THE YEAH! BEST. HUSBAND. EVER. And then how sweet he was when Michael finally woke up? GAH.

Luke and Noah are the daytime equivalent to Michael and Ben. Their love is so real and so sweet. And Noah's already punched people out in the name of Luke. ^_^ He's also been there in the hospital room with him, waiting for Luke to wake up. I could totally see Luke and Noah living Michael and Ben's life. ^_^

Bah. Why not live vicariously through my boy-love shows? I've got nothing better to do!

Whiskey Tango Foxtrot, world?!

2009-08-04T16:06:53Z

My life is funny. Case in point: Nick AKA Asswad AKA ex-boyfriend emailed me YET AGAIN. Just this past Sunday.

And he writes to me like we're buddies who just haven't connected in a while. "Hey, how are you? Hope you're having a great summer!" WITH A SMILEY FACE. Seriously, dude, do you want your teeth kicked in? 'Cause that's basically what you're making me want to do. Sigh. Where's Casey when I need him.

Why hasn't he MOVED ON already? We've seriously been broken up for TWO YEARS!!! January of '07, people. It kinda freaks me out.

And it pisses me off, because him continually writing to me or trying to connect with me practically RUBS IN MY FACE the fact that he STILL doesn't understand what he put me through with all of those endless breakups. I wish I could do that thing that The Crow does at the end of the movie, where he stores up those last hours of Shelley's life, when she was in the hospital dying and suffering through her pain, and he transfers all her anguish onto his enemy on the rooftop. I wish I could take all those horrible memories I have of him treating me like I was less than human, and just shoot them into his brain. I bet you he wouldn't be able to handle it.

DAMN YOU. I'd like to say that I don't HATE anyone in my life, but he really pushes me close to saying that. I guess I should be grateful that I am changing my email.

GRRRR. Not happy.

We painted the town red (and white, and green)

2009-08-02T16:56:12Z

Was bored off my ass yesterday, so I called Pace and Brian up, and we went out to dinner at Kenka's on St. Marks Place. I adore that place. The food is so yummy and so cheap and they give you cotton candy for dessert! You can't go wrong. Plus, Pace and Brian had never been there, and I love St. Marks Place. I had a mango soda with my dinner, which was delicious! It was very refreshing. ^_^

After Kenka, we took a trip down to Little Italy, and strolled through the blocks. It was so nice out last night...a little more humid than I would have liked, but for July, I can't complain. We walked by all the restaurants and decided that next time we're eating there for dinner! Everybody was eating outside, it was awesome. And I saw Vincent's again...corner of Mott and Hester street...I literally haven't been to Vincent's since 2004. So next time, we're eating there! Must make better memories out of that place.

Pace and I bought Gelatos from one of the little stands on the street and they were DELICIOUS. Yum. I had French vanilla that was to die for. And only $2.50! (Compared to $5 down the street.) Awesome, awesome night. Little Italy is my new favourite place in Manhattan.

Brian is so clueless about Manhattan, it's adorable! Haha. Pace and I went down into the subway to look at the map so we could get to Little Italy, and after we figured it out, we had to go back up and cross the street for the downtown train, and Brian was like, "Why can't we just take that train?" and for the life of us, we couldn't get him to understand that one train goes uptown and the other goes downtown. LOL. He didn't get it! Haha. Silly Brian. ^_^

Yay for spontaneity! Great things are born out of people who don't plan things. Whoo!

I watched the first episode of Glee on Fox.com the other day, and I have to say that I REALLY liked it! It's quirky and different from other shows. Can't wait to see where it goes during the season, especially since they keep showing that commercial for it with the kids singing Freddie's "Somebody to Love"! Aw yeah. And the first ep? They sang Journey's "Don't Stop Believin'". Yeah. I like this show. ^_^

I am also slowly but surely making my way through the first season of TrueBlood. I REALLY like this show as well. Also very different. And I have to say, I really wasn't a big fan of Anna Paquin's, but she's definitely growing on me because of this show. Girl's got a slammin' body! Damn. That's not fair. ^_^ I wish Sookie's grandmother hadn't been killed off, though. I loved her grandmother. And Lafayette...I adore him. He's hysterical! I love the openness of HBO shows. No censorship like on other shows *coughATWTNukecough*. ^_^ Although I have to say the needle-to-the-johnson scene with Jason and the doctor after Jason took too much V had me writhing. Writhing!! I don't have a johnson and I still felt his pain....I HATE needles!! Gah. Loved those scenes with Tara, though. She was fricken hysterical the whole time!

We're down to The Final Four already on SYTYCD! Can't believe it! This week already. Though I'm upset about Ade. I really like both him and Evan, but I think Ade was a better dancer. He should have made it in with Brandon. Oh, well. I'm happy that Jeanine and Kayla are our girls! Yeah! But what's up with this new fall season business? I'm not complaining too much, but I really liked SYTYCD as a strictly summer show. Hmm. I'm excited to see Evan's brother, though! I really hope he makes the show this season.

Back to the "routine"

2009-07-30T03:31:44Z

My first day back in New York after a week and a half, and there's a HUGE thunderstorm warning with a chance of tornadoes. All right! (Not.)

So, Bel's father's funeral was awful. Just so incredibly sad. The music is what got to me. After the second song of the service, the waterworks were unstoppable. Just horribly sad. Poor Bel and her family. T_T

Caitie helped me, though. She and I talked about some heaven-related things on the drive home, and it really helped me feel better. I love talking to her about this kind of stuff, because she's so educated and open about it. That's like, the best combination ever. She listened to my stupid questions and answered them honestly without judgment. And she knows so much about this topic, that listening to her describe things is really eye-opening. It's a really neat facet of my sister that I enjoy fully. I love her quirks!

And I do think that after time, Bel's family will be better. Luckily, they are close, so I know they will get each other through this. Still a horrible loss, but they will pull each other through.

Had the commute from hell yesterday. I sat on a bus in front of the Lincoln tunnel for an HOUR. The bus was literally parked and the driver was up and stretching his legs, that's how bad the traffic was. Ugh. Then, of course I get on the 7 with all my damn bags and it's PACKED. I had to force my way off the train. Ugh. Remind me to NEVER do that again. Next time I'll just re-arrange my plans.

Reason why I didn't is because Pacey, Brian, Jeepies, and I had tickets to the Mets-Rockies game last night. I didn't want to back out on Pacey and I didn't want to pay for something that I didn't get to enjoy, so I hauled ass back to NY to make it to the game. I'm glad I did. It was a LOT of fun. The humidity + my hair was not, but the game was great. My boys got a sorely-needed win, and I got to spend time with my friends and laugh after a sad morning. And I had a beer at the game in honor of John (Bel's dad), and then we went to O'Lunney's afterward and had a Magner's for him, too. ^_^ Nothing like a stiff Irish drink to get you through the day! (Okay, so Magner's ain't so stiff...but it is Irish and delicious! Much like the bartenders there...)

So....Van and Jake have fan facebook pages. To friend or not to friend? I can't decide...friending them makes me feel weird and I don't know why. I still have my love/hate relationship with the celebrity world....

And my life is still kind of a steaming sack of shit. I'm really at the "what the hell do I do now?" stage. My options are non-existant. Hm. Whatev.

K, gonna go have a QAF marathon now...I watched three episodes today and I still have more to go in order to catch up! I'm kinda wishing that Ted and Emmett would get back together...they were so sweet and happy when they were dating. And Ben and Michael! I love you two! Nothing short of adorable.